When I got out of high school, I had issues of my thinking patterns. It was horrible. I thought about suicide. I know what you are thinking, why on earth as a Christian would I think about suicide?
I allowed satan to put thoughts into my brain and I begin to think that was how I am: “I’m nothing”, “I can’t do anything good enough”, and “God isn’t listening to me”. I finally had enough and I needed Jesus Christ more and more. All of us are fighting against 3 enemies: flesh, world and the dark spiritual side. I allowed satan’s words to become a part of who I was. I really needed God to help me. So I bought a book about the battle within your mind. I did become depressed, I was more sensitive, I became angered.
When I read the Bible more, and prayed, my thoughts became more peaceful and better. I felt more positive in Jesus Christ and what He was about to do. My thoughts became better and I realized that God WAS there for me every step of the way. My faith became stronger. I started to resist any bad thought that came to me. I started to become positive and say, “I can do all things because God gives me the strength”.
God changed my mind about death and now I love this life that He has given me.